i write this today as one installment in a (possible) series re: the ongoing fight to think in such a way that's true, honoring to Him, beneficial to others, not self-defeating, etc etc.i'm scatterbrained. i once walked to the office breakroom with papers in hand & tried to start making copies in the sink. i've used laundry detergent, unwittingly, to wash my face. the aforementioned loss of glasses (4/20th post) is perhaps a little more devastating than sink as copy machine or detergent as facewash.
but the fact that i forget things i didn't write down, or leave things at your house that weren't attached to my person, or once in a while, skim the directions on the back & thereby misuse a product, doesn't mean i'm unintelligent. but that's what i've kind of started to believe. moments of forgetfulness become ugly introspection. has it happened to you? you do a stupid thing & the next thing you're thinking is i am a stupid person.
we need a paradigm shift. for those times when we take a flaw or recurring pattern of not-very-awesomeness & turn it into an irreparable character issue.
maybe it could help to tell someone, hey- this is how x trait is making me feel about myself, or this is the place i go to when y happens. will you think about this with me; & can we talk to Him about it together; & find truth that addresses this ungracious, anti-gospel type mindset?
i might not be stupid, per se. but i definitely have room to grow & learn! Father, i need Your strength & the support of people around me! thank You for your very present help!
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